I will always want.
Want for a bigger house.
Want for a nice car.
Want to travel to far-off places.
Want to achieve greater things.
But only one want is essential.
Want to be content in You, Lord.
I have such lofty dreams that some seem unattainable.
But lofty as they may seem, all these pale in comparison to the dream God has for me.
Shall I get upset with the Lord for not giving me what I have been praying for? Shall I count the good I’ve done in His name? Shall I pull-out my score card for Him to remember?
Heaven forbid! Remove the scales from my eyes that I may see Your ever-present goodness. Pierce my heart and deflate my pride that has taken root. Let Your truth shine in the darkest corners of my mind that I may fathom even a fraction of Your great love for me.
I struggle because I have been yearning for an ordinary life — a life of simplicity and tranquility. But not an ordinary life does the Lord give me. A life of heartbreaks, difficult people, series of struggles and doubt has been my lot. An extra-ordinary life! And I wonder why.
Perhaps — perhaps, that I may experience His extra-ordinary peace that encompasses all understanding. Perhaps, that I may be a channel of His extra-ordinary grace to minister to people. Perhaps, to gain wisdom. And perhaps, to experience Him lift me up when I grow weary.