You go before me and follow me.
You place your hand of blessing on my head. — Psalm 139:5
How precious are your thoughts about me,O God.
They cannot be numbered! — Psalm 139:17
There was a time when I thought I could not live without a boyfriend. When one relationship ended, I was on the lookout for a new one. I needed someone to help me go through life and tell me that I mattered. It was a vicious cycle of highs and lows, happiness and pain, validation and emptiness.
It was years later that I became a follower of Jesus. Stumbling through the Bible I came upon these words (Psalms 139:5, 17). The God of the universe thinks about me? Almighty God, Omniscient, All-Powerful, All-Knowing, the Creator of heaven and earth has me in mind all the time? Really? It was incomprehensible. But I was so comforted to know that it is all true — He is faithfully and wonderfully true! A Father who watches over me, concerned for the things I pursue and occupies my heart. A King who delights to bless me with all the good at His disposal. A Protector who remembers my weaknesses and fears and never fails to encourage and strengthen me. A Healer who knows every cell in my body, with all the aches, pain and ravaging disease. A Lord who entrusts me with all His possessions though I waste and misuse much. The Lord of mercy whose lovingkindness never fails.
Who could ever love me as much as God? Not the best boyfriend or the most understanding husband could bless or have precious thoughts about me. Secure of His love, I was freed from ‘the need’ to seek affirmation in all the wrong places. Blessed be His love!